[dropcap]T[/dropcap]he last few months have been pretty meh. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve done some great things and had a lot of fun, but they’ve also been meh. I’m on a bit of a downer. My health is rubbish – constantly tired, bad ears, mental health is a bit poo, etc. – and I’m desperate for a little bit of positivity.
I’ve basically been wallowing in self-pity for the last two months. I’ve been doing silly things like eating my feelings and being sad, and letting myself do it. Gross. Get your head in the game, Imii.
With uni just over a month away (who am I kidding? It’s like a month and a half still) I think it’s time for me to pull my socks up, put on my big girl pants, and get over myself. I can do anything I want to do and there’s no point telling myself otherwise. Shall we make a pact? I sort myself out and you keep following me and n&b? If I don’t, you have my full permission to unfollow.
Now that’s incentive. Numbers games and all.
So here are the thoughts I plan on taking into September, right through to the other side. Maybe even into October and forever. Who even knows.
Remember when Stuart Little was the people’s hero? He said that thing about being ‘as big as you feel’. Well, there’s mantra no1. You’re as big and as clever and as important as you let yourself feel, so why not go cray. Let yourself flourish and grow and smash life and be awesome. You’re as badass as you feel. Don’t let other people make you feel small.
Then we move on to ‘don’t be lazy with yourself’ and ‘thrive’. Two wishy-washy little love yourself phrases that I should really have put in script on a floral background and sold for £15 a pop. Really though, I’m going to stick to these. Lately I’ve been following more along the lines of ‘nothing is worth the effort’ and ‘exist’ and that’s no fun, is it? I’ve come to realise that loving yourself and looking after yourself doesn’t have to mean being a super human and doing all the exercise and using all the expensive skincare and eating all the expensive fruit. It can just mean washing your hair more and taking pride in yourself, regardless of whether you’re where you want to be. I need to paint my nails more, wear makeup more, and generally just let myself feel nice and happy and whatever. Don’t skimp on keeping yourself on top form.
That’s enough for now. We don’t want to overwhelms ourselves, do we? We want to focus our attention on one or two things, rather than give each thing 20 minutes before having to run to the next.
All of the above focus on looking after myself, in every way possible. Food, exercise, health and friendships.
Don’t let anyone dictate to you how big or small you are and make sure that you thrive as a human being.
I reckon that’s enough to be getting on with.0