I can honestly say that I have never owned more than two pairs of casual shorts in my life.
I don’t mean shorts in general, I mean summer shorts like jean shorts or whatever (sports shorts etc. don’t count). I am coming up to 21.
As I shared with you on Tuesday, I have a disgustingly warped relationship with health and fitness. So, naturally, I am also horrendously self-conscious.
I am what is known in the (awful) world of body shapes as pear shaped. Which is cool. I have no problem with this because my top half is fabulous and I can lose weight off my belly just by thinking about it. I’m also not one to get caught up on such a disgusting way of labelling a woman’s body – I am not a fruit.
However, I do have big legs. Not big in a shapely way. Just big. Again, this isn’t a problem – I look good in jeans, etc. But I absolutely dread summer every year. Every single year about now all the nerves and and anxiety creeps in and I find myself wshing it was winter again. So to answer my title question: I do not, ever, no way, wear short shorts. Or skirts or dresses. Yeah, summer is quite hot when you’re me.
So why am I sharing all of this with you?
I have promised myself that this summer while in Bali I will own and wear a pair of denim shorts, something I have never done before.
I once made a pair out of a pair of old black jeans, wore them for a week and threw them away.
On Wednesday I tried on a pair of Superdry denim shorts. Superdry is such an awful shop if you’re self conscious because their sizes come up so so small. I therefore tried on a size bigger than I would normally try if I was feeling meh.
I’m going to be honest now, they looked good. I looked good. Damn, I looked good. Not perfect, not how I’d like to, but I felt comfortable AND they were a little too big. Awesome.
So this is what I have challenged myself to. As I’ve said a few times recently, I am on a bit of a health and fitness kick. If I can smash the next two months I am going to go back to Superdry, whatever my size or weight or whatever, and buy myself my first pair of denim shorts. I’m honestly so so excited.
Is there anything you’ve done that has scared you recently?
Was it as bad once you’d done it?