imiimace dot com in 2020 ft. a Crisis of Confidence

Lol this is weird.

Can you believe that it’s been over a year since I last wrote anything for this little blog? I can. Blogging is kinda… not a thing now… for me? There are still a lot of bloggers out there doing their thing though. Don’t let me not having blogged for a year get you down.

I certainly haven’t really thought about my blog for longer than five minutes at a time these last 13 months.

I also definitely wrote this very post a year ago with all about how I’m back at it and it’s going to be great. Honestly, what was I thinking? My heart wasn’t in it. I was not about to give my life back over to writing blog posts about makeup.

The truth is, I feel like I lack authority.

There is nothing I hate more than people chatting shit about things they know nothing about. I hate it. It makes me want to fight everyone. Stop telling people things like they’re facts?! When what you are saying is not a fact?! I actually can’t bear it to the point of neurosis. Chatting shit is my ultimate pet peeve – my bad place.

And yet I am also a raging hypocrite. Because blogging is just chatting shit with pictures. Instagram is just people posting nice snaps while chatting shit in their captions and stories.

This post is going nowhere.

I’m back baby. We’re in lockdown, the sun is shining, I still have an easter egg to eat (chocolate isn’t my fave, okay?) and I’ve harvested all of my animal crossing fruit in order to pay my racoon overlord. I’ve completed all of my tasks for the day before lunch.

I am the epitome of fake productivity – none of the things I have done matter, but I have done them so that’s nice for me.

And so here I am, sitting in my PJs on the sofa, watching Lord of the Rings (extended ofc) from start to finish, tapping away at my keyboard with absolutely no plan or structure or anything. God I am so out of practice. God I have so little to say. I have so little to say without chatting absolute shit. Why should you care what I have to say?

As usual, I also feel in a real funk with my instagram content. I’ve gone quite grey lately and I don’t know if I like it but also feel like it’s too late.

Damn guys just leave this place and go read Yossy’s blog instead. Far more insightful and interesting.

Pull yourself together, Imogen.

I think what I want to say is welcome back. Welcome to Imii Mace dot com – I’m sorry that the Imii Mace in question is in the middle of a crisis of confidence.

But I am back, for now. At least until the end of lockdown, and then hopefully I’ll have got more into the habit of blogging. I miss it – despite never really thinking about it. I miss having an outlet where I could write things down and be creative in a constructive way. That’s my favourite thing about writing a blog – it’s everything: photography, design, words, the whole works.

I’m also very attached to it – every year it’s like do I lose the domain, do I cancel my hosting and then I’m like wow that would be like five years of my life, documented, just gone. Like that. Heavy stuff man. I don’t know if I can deal with that.

So here I am, back.

What I can promise you going forward is I will be honest, in lifestyle content and in product reviews, etc. I will improve and I will create content that you want to read, like I used to, and I will find something interesting to say. I’ll just chill out a little – not everything has to be perfect and that’s okay.

Please be patient with me in the meantime.

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